As you all know I’m struggling from severe depression. I honestly wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. There’s no escape or relief or anywhere to run and hide. My only time I’m at peace is when I’m sleeping.
Depression also makes you feel very alone. However this week felt quite different. A selected few people seen how much I was struggling and wanted to show me that I wasn’t alone and I didn’t need to fight this alone. It felt as if a bit of weight was lifted.
These two special ladies sent thoughtful presents to cheer me up. They had put a lot of thought into them and took a lot of time to put them together which meant a lot.
These same ladies seem to know when I’m at my rock bottom and send me inspirational messages to bring me back up.
They have gave me a bit of a spring board to help me get myself out of the deep hole that I’ve been in for a very long time. It’s making it easier to see the positives.
From Monday it’s been a more positive week than it’s been in a while. I usually get moments during the day when I feel down, when it feels like a dark clouds came over me. I’ve not felt that this week, which is great!
I’ve put some positives things in place for the near future to try and keep me focused and positive. I have enrolled to college to do some distance learning courses to keep me busy and keep my head going. I have a trip to Dumfries at the start of April to see family and the Chiari girls. I am then going to apply to the Open University to do the Sociology degree. I’ll continue to think of things to keep me busy, focused and positive.
I have chiari, Syringomyelia, hydrocephalus, I don’t produce steroids and have had 15 plus brain ops and would rather that than depression over and over! It’s a horrible illness!!
I just wanted to show how thankful I was for the help fighting the illness because I need all the help i can get.
Thank you Lisa and Lynsey x x
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Love karen x x x